When my alarm woke me up this morning I was not feeling well at all. I had a sore throat and a major headache as well as a fever. This doesn’t happen to me very often and I don’t deal well with it. As you know, I am always looking for ways to stay healthy. I decided that going to work wasn’t in anyone’s best interest. So I went back to bed and slept some more. I must admit that I was feeling a wee bit sorry for myself. Now I do know that it’s not the end of the world and there are others out there struggling with worse health issues and this too shall pass. Being ill brings up all these feelings of inadequacy and shame. I am the main caregiver in our household afterall. Dealing with illness is just another thing to stress and worry about for most people and that includes me.
My daughter came upstairs to see why I wasn’t up and about getting ready for work. Her alarm hadn’t gone off and she was in a rush to get ready and get to school on time. I fell back asleep and then I woke up to find her sitting on the edge of my bed. She sat there with me and we talked for a bit and that is when I realized that I am a very lucky person. This bug will pass and I will be back to my healthy self again but moments like the one I had with my daughter are to be cherished. Today is her 17th birthday and I can’t believe how fast the time has passed since that day I gave birth to her. We have been through a lot in those 17 years, some good and some really awful times. But we came through it stronger and with a lot of lessons learned. I know as a mother, we always expect our kids to turn out wonderful and amazing but when my own child surpasses my highest expectations it’s just such a wonderful feeling.
Having her there for me when I am feeling awful was and is such a blessing. As a single mom who has to be strong most of the time this was a nice change. I felt so supported and loved and it was so nice to not have to be strong and just be allowed to nurture myself.
I took some time to think about the little things that make our lives amazing. It doesn’t seem to be the grand, over the top experiences that we have. Although they are wonderful too. It’s the little things that make someone’s day. Having a conversation with a loved one, or a cup of tea or coffee on a cold morning that helps us to warm up. For me it has always been the interactions that I have with other people. Getting a text from a friend just when I am feeling lonely or down. Calling a girlfriend and catching up on the big and little things that are happening in each of our lives. Smiling at a stranger while grocery shopping and getting a smile back. These may seem small but they connect us to one another and isn’t that really why we are here? I would love to hear from you about this,…